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First time SLEEP_WAKING virgin here! [Jan. 29th, 2005|03:46 pm]
Sleep Waking: A Dream Discussion and Interpretati


[Leaves me feeling... |pensivepensive]
[In my head there's... |"Hands Down" -- Dashboard Confessional.]

I've had a crush on the same boy for five and a half years. He started going out with a girl this year who actually has the same last name as him, and her name is Sarah. I really cannot stand her-- she's the kind of girl who has everything, perfect grades, hair to die for, teeth that would make a Colgate model envious. She's got it all, and I've got none of it. I'm just the dorky, obsessive girl whom won't leave her boyfriend alone.

But the nerds always come out on top in the end, right?

Sarah has a little sister, Molly, who's had a couple of pretty intensive surgeries over the past two years; one to correct her vision, and another just a few weeks ago on her kidneys. I dreamt that Molly had leukemia, and nobody in Sarah's family had the right type of blood for a bone marrow transplant. Eventually though, somehow we found out that I did, and I of course, being the saint that I am, decided to give her some of my bone marrow. However, as I was sitting on the operating table before the taking out of the marrow was to occur, I got a visit from Sarah. No, not Sarah and that boy, just Sarah. Conversation ensued.

Sarah: Hi Allegra.
Me: Hi Sarah.
Sarah: Thanks for doing this.
Me: No problemo. Can I tell you something before they stick that big needle thing into my spine and suck out the spongey parts of my bones?
Sarah: Uhm, sure?
Me: I hate you and am only doing this out of the goodness of my heart because I know that in the end I will come out on top and you'll be stuck here in Hicksville forever selling Real Estate or something equally boring.
Sarah: ...
Me: Oh yeah, and I'm still in love with your boyfriend.
Sarah: ...

And then the anesthesia kicked in, so.

Comments? Questions? Interpretations? Predictions? Anything?

[User Picture]From: i_got_spunk
2005-01-29 09:11 pm (UTC)
First of all, great song choice.

Well, obviously, you want this guy, but I didn't have to tell you that. Sarah is in your way. You want her to know. Planning on telling her?
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[User Picture]From: argella
2005-01-29 09:13 pm (UTC)
Ahh, thanks!!

Yeah. Have told her multiple times, before and after she decided to start going out with him.
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[User Picture]From: lindskaba
2005-01-30 04:23 am (UTC)
I agree, great song choice ;)

Do you find that you're a very giving person? Perhaps too giving? Like even to people who you don't care about? Here, you're helping someone--literally giving up a part of you--for someone you not only don't care about, but hate. I imagine that having such negative feelings for someone must be incredibly taxing...but perhaps you're allowing her to do it, even volunteering for the job. Maybe you need to work on letting go of some of that hate, because only you can control your emotions--and you dont' want to feel any that are hurting you.

Am I maybe at least a little bit on the mark? ^_^;;; I don't know you, so obviously it's more difficult...welcome to the community!!!
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[User Picture]From: argella
2005-01-30 01:24 pm (UTC)
Thaaaanks!! =D

Hm. I've actually been more told by people that I'm incredibly selfish, but perhaps letting go of the hate would be good. Letting go of the boy would be nice too, but once you've been obsessing over someone for half a decade, it gets a little difficult to let go. ;D I'm working on it.

Thanks, thanks!! ♥
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